Coming up soon in my life, I will take an adventurous jump into an unknown pool. I will be stepping out in faith into what God is calling me to do. There has been so many emotions that have gone into the walk down the path of obedience. I’m sure I have been a bit schizophrenic at times trying to cope with all of the personalities that have formed throughout the process. Last week when I felt totally fine, the enemy attacked me with a wave of panic and fear. I felt completely out of control and confused. I wondered “What have I gotten myself in to?” Crazy thoughts started to overtake me, “I can’t do this.”, “I’m not going.”, “HELP!!” In my head I thought I had totally defeated fear in this area. Grant it, I have definitely had my fair share of fear and anxiety in the past, but I thought that I had already combated it in this area and won. And you know what I had, but the enemy waits until you are comfy in your victory to do a sneak attack on you.
This emotional overtaking was good for me though, because it forced me to look a little closer at what I had been doing with my time. I knew that I had been doing my best to prepare for where the Lord was taking me. I was so totally organized and focus on what I need to get done in the natural. But in all the doing, I had gotten a little too comfy, nodded off and fallen asleep. And the enemy was right there waiting to take advantage. I felt totally unprepared in that moment of panic. Even though I had the tools I needed to defeat the enemy, I was not quite ready. It’s like when someone wakes you up out of a dead sleep to do something that requires brain power but you aren’t quite alert enough to react. It was just like that. I was totally surprised and caught off guard.
I felt just like Peter when he went up with Jesus to pray on the Mount of Olives and fell asleep, even though Jesus told them what they should be doing. Praying. And then the next thing you know here comes the enemy. ” ‘Why are you sleeping?’ He asked them. ‘Get up and pray so that you will not give into temptation.’ ” Luke 22:46. “Keep watch and pray, so that you will not give in to temptation.” Mark 14:38. Peter was totally unprepared spiritually when the enemy approached. If either of us had been keeping watch we would have been ready when the offense arrived. Alleviating panic, irrational thoughts and reactions.
Watch: look at or observe attentively
This is what we do. We get so comfortable in our doing and our safety that we forget to keep watch and fall asleep spiritually. In doing so, leaving prime ground for the enemy to come and do a stealth attack on us when we are not focused or prepared. We can be completely prepared in the natural and totally lack luster in our spirit. Taking more time to prepare in the natural is like washing a car all the time but never having an oil change. Our flesh is so weak that no matter how much we prepare it will never be sufficient. “For the spirit is willing but the body is weak.” Mark 14:38
Acknowledging and working toward excellence in our callings is a great thing. But when the natural preparation takes precedent over spiritual health, our guards are let down and we open a window to allow the enemy entry. So, this is what we are going to do. Today we are going to shift our focus and feed our spirit man first, while we allow our Father to prepare all of us for the work He has called us to. We are going to remember why we are doing what we are doing in the first place. And we are going to stay awake and watch.
Lord Jesus, thank You for Your mercy and abundant grace. We give You all the glory you deserve. Forgive us where we have failed. Father prepare us as we chose to shift our eyes to you. Give us eyes to watch and woo us to You. Breathe Your peace over us Jesus as we trust You through our obedience. Increase our faith and strengthen our hearts for the journey. In Jesus name AMEN!
“Unless the Lord builds a house, the work of the builders is wasted. Unless the Lord protects a city, guarding it with sentries will do no good.” Psalm 127:1